MOOD: PROCRASTINATINGLY DANGEROUS
As the days drift by like cars on a road, life at present has presented me with a crossroad of my own, one more aptly in the shape of a fork. With the radio project now becoming a rather low key event, I want to move on as quickly as possible into the next phase of my life, and to a degree, another phase of thinking.
I guess the last 15 years has not just been an experience of an Asperger's Syndrome person trying to reach out, but one that has washed every fiber of naivety away from my very existence - the clarity of life around me has never been clearer. The upper point of this I guess is wisdom, knowing the true colours of my surroundings are no longer obscured by any fuzzy romantic thoughts.
This very much bights to the very essence of my thinking; where everything, and I mean everything that passes through my head like mountains of mail through a mail centre is divided up into to major camps - the realistic and the romantic. Is this a rapid evolution of my thinking or just a sharp reality check - honestly it could be a bit of both or more to the point I don't really know. One thing is for certain, there is been a major mind shift in the way I'm starting to approach things.
One of these things that have become very evident over the last 12 months is how I'm communicating - just sticking to the flow, which brings us back to the first few words of my blog today; "like cars on a road".
If you drive, then you know they are a number of rules that one abides to, particularly when traveling on a multi-lane highway that has a set speed limit. Let's just say it is 80 Kph or for our American friends 50 Mph. As you guide your car through the traffic, you observe that everyone merges, exits, and changes lanes - it all seems to flow like a ballet. You know there's a give and take behaviour - when a truck comes, everybody moves accordingly, and if you're blocking someone who wants to go faster, you move over, and so forth - you get the idea. Though they are rules, as one can see, there is a give and take interaction in motion for the sake of keeping things flowing.
Now consider if the car in front of you is going to stick to the rules exactly, and stay at 80 Kph. Imagine what the consequences of doing such a thing - the person is either going to crash into you when the traffic speeds up, or he is going to smash into somebody else when the other cars slow down. So in short, you are BLOCKED behind this particular car.
Now see how one needs to understand that in order to move along in an orderly fashion, that at times they'll need to go somewhat faster or slower when the circumstances arise. It's not breaking the law, but understanding that such rules at times need to be flexible for the circumstances that they have been designed for. In this case keeping the traffic flowing smoothly, not for bringing everything to a screeching halt.
So to end this off, let's have a final rundown of our traffic report. It looks like we have one of these cars, currently located on the ground floor of 287 New South Head Road Edgecliff, just outside the train station. He is strictly sticking by the rules, and his non-flexible "Act" is not winning any Oscars from my group of friends. Now that we're skirting dangerously close to the forbidden ground of a neurotypical's world - that's where we'll stop, and trust that you can join the dots.
I guess the last 15 years has not just been an experience of an Asperger's Syndrome person trying to reach out, but one that has washed every fiber of naivety away from my very existence - the clarity of life around me has never been clearer. The upper point of this I guess is wisdom, knowing the true colours of my surroundings are no longer obscured by any fuzzy romantic thoughts.
This very much bights to the very essence of my thinking; where everything, and I mean everything that passes through my head like mountains of mail through a mail centre is divided up into to major camps - the realistic and the romantic. Is this a rapid evolution of my thinking or just a sharp reality check - honestly it could be a bit of both or more to the point I don't really know. One thing is for certain, there is been a major mind shift in the way I'm starting to approach things.
One of these things that have become very evident over the last 12 months is how I'm communicating - just sticking to the flow, which brings us back to the first few words of my blog today; "like cars on a road".
If you drive, then you know they are a number of rules that one abides to, particularly when traveling on a multi-lane highway that has a set speed limit. Let's just say it is 80 Kph or for our American friends 50 Mph. As you guide your car through the traffic, you observe that everyone merges, exits, and changes lanes - it all seems to flow like a ballet. You know there's a give and take behaviour - when a truck comes, everybody moves accordingly, and if you're blocking someone who wants to go faster, you move over, and so forth - you get the idea. Though they are rules, as one can see, there is a give and take interaction in motion for the sake of keeping things flowing.
Now consider if the car in front of you is going to stick to the rules exactly, and stay at 80 Kph. Imagine what the consequences of doing such a thing - the person is either going to crash into you when the traffic speeds up, or he is going to smash into somebody else when the other cars slow down. So in short, you are BLOCKED behind this particular car.
Now see how one needs to understand that in order to move along in an orderly fashion, that at times they'll need to go somewhat faster or slower when the circumstances arise. It's not breaking the law, but understanding that such rules at times need to be flexible for the circumstances that they have been designed for. In this case keeping the traffic flowing smoothly, not for bringing everything to a screeching halt.
So to end this off, let's have a final rundown of our traffic report. It looks like we have one of these cars, currently located on the ground floor of 287 New South Head Road Edgecliff, just outside the train station. He is strictly sticking by the rules, and his non-flexible "Act" is not winning any Oscars from my group of friends. Now that we're skirting dangerously close to the forbidden ground of a neurotypical's world - that's where we'll stop, and trust that you can join the dots.
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