Saturday, July 12, 2014

It's finished - It's over.

Though 2PR FM will continue indefinitely on the internet, with a heavy heart and a much freer mind, I'm quietly announcing that my licensing campaign, it's relating publicity, and promotions has come to its end.  I hinted at this during November last year, but this is now certainly the final call. 

As of a few weeks ago, there was a final article in the Leader, noting my attempts at obtaining an unused AM license.  What has finialised this decision was an event that has hit close to home.  There is the realisation that there is a low to non existent tolerance level for those with a disability, receiving exemptions on things such as radio licenses.  One can only imagine how one would feel after 15 years of work, with no broadcast license to speak of.  It's realising on what I've been doing is now resulting in adverse reactions, and with this drawing a line in the sand to say that's it. 

At least the upside - I've digitised most of my CD and record collection into WAV, and enjoying music has never been so easy and fun. :)  I'm also discovering that I'm having more time to do other things, with so much less stress.  I'm very much looking forward to spring - a time to find new light. 

This is the way of the world, and for me it's time to move on to greener pastures.  On what this will be, it will be revealed in good time. 

Tuesday, June 17, 2014

Our final traffic report.


As the days drift by like cars on a road, life at present has presented me with a crossroad of my own, one more aptly in the shape of a fork.  With the radio project now becoming a rather low key event, I want to move on as quickly as possible into the next phase of my life, and to a degree, another phase of thinking.  

I guess the last 15 years has not just been an experience of an Asperger's Syndrome person trying to reach out, but one that has washed every fiber of naivety away from my very existence - the clarity of life around me has never been clearer.  The upper point of this I guess is wisdom, knowing the true colours of my surroundings are no longer obscured by any fuzzy romantic thoughts.  

This very much bights to the very essence of my thinking; where everything, and I mean everything that passes through my head like mountains of mail through a mail centre is divided up into to major camps - the realistic and the romantic.  Is this a rapid evolution of my thinking or just a sharp reality check - honestly it could be a bit of both or more to the point I don't really know.  One thing is for certain, there is been a major mind shift in the way I'm starting to approach things.

One of these things that have become very evident over the last 12 months is how I'm communicating - just sticking to the flow, which brings us back to the first few words of my blog today; "like cars on a road".

If you drive, then you know they are a number of rules that one abides to, particularly when traveling on a multi-lane highway that has a set speed limit.  Let's just say it is 80 Kph or for our American friends 50 Mph.  As you guide your car through the traffic, you observe that everyone merges, exits, and changes lanes - it all seems to flow like a ballet.  You know there's a give and take behaviour - when a truck comes, everybody moves accordingly, and if you're blocking someone who wants to go faster, you move over, and so forth - you get the idea.  Though they are rules, as one can see, there is a give and take interaction in motion for the sake of keeping things flowing.

Now consider if the car in front of you is going to stick to the rules exactly, and stay at 80 Kph.  Imagine what the consequences of doing such a thing - the person is either going to crash into you when the traffic speeds up, or he is going to smash into somebody else when the other cars slow down.  So in short, you are BLOCKED behind this particular car.  

Now see how one needs to understand that in order to move along in an orderly fashion, that at times they'll need to go somewhat faster or slower when the circumstances arise.  It's not breaking the law, but understanding that such rules at times need to be flexible for the circumstances that they have been designed for.  In this case keeping the traffic flowing smoothly, not for bringing everything to a screeching halt.

So to end this off, let's have a final rundown of our traffic report.  It looks like we have one of these cars, currently located on the ground floor of 287 New South Head Road Edgecliff, just outside the train station.  He is strictly sticking by the rules, and his non-flexible "Act" is not winning any Oscars from my group of friends.  Now that we're skirting dangerously close to the forbidden ground of a neurotypical's world - that's where we'll stop, and trust that you can join the dots. 

Friday, June 13, 2014

Could we be saved from the El Nino monster?


Back in March, the combination of satellite data and sea temperature maps were telling us that we were going to be in for another El Nino.  This is the weather phenomenon that basically screws up the world’s climate for a year and here in Australia gives us below average rainfall and higher then average temperatures.  In short we cop the worst end of it.  This generally happens over a 12 month period, proceeding from when an El Nino first forms around April of one year through to April of the next year when a typical event has formed, peaked, and subsided.

The main focus of studying such events is scanning the Pacific Ocean for water surface temperatures.  In a normal year, such temperatures are flat across the entire ocean with very little fluctuation from area to area.  In an El Nino year, waters around the Western Pacific cool by about 5 degrees, while waters on the Eastern Pacific will rise in temperature by around 5 Degrees.  This is caused by a current several hundred meters under the ocean surface.  At this stage we'll leave it there, as the rest is rather complicated.  But for the maps below this will basically explain things.

This satellite scan from the 21st of April shows an El Nino event rapidly forming.  Note the white area in the ocean west of Peru, and the blue and deep purple areas above Australia.

Now interestingly check the image below here, taken on the 5th of June.  Though the signs of an El Nino are still present, look at the intensity of the colours - this is what is looking hopeful.  The El Nino could be pulling back.  Note the purples above Australia are almost absent (mostly blue), and the white patch west of Peru is gone.    The recent weather in Sydney would also support such a trend.  April and May were very dry, while the first few weeks of June have been moderately wet.  Over the last two weeks, there has been a number of days where solid rain has fallen.   

For all of us who live in non-air-conditioned units or flats or whatever - this is of particular interest.  If one knows of when we have a stretch of 35 degree days in a row, then you'll know exactly where I'm coming from.  Hopefully it may completely revert, and instead we get a La Nina, which is cooler wetter weather.  This is especially so when one has Asperger's Syndrome, as they are much more susceptible to the heat. 

Friday, June 6, 2014

The Five Million Dollar Syndrome.

Could this be my addition to the MacQuarie dictionary - I guess time will tell. :)

First, why five million?  Because it seems to be the average size of today's lotto or lottery win.

Now what in hell is the syndrome it self?  Well how many times has the story been told, that a family has won a huge lottery win.  Then relatives, cousins, or other family friends that haven't been in touch for many years suddenly either come door knocking, or ringing up pleading for a piece of the prize money.

You've heard the story before, or at least you know you've heard tales of such happenings, but anyway, this is what I call the five million dollar syndrome.

The primary phase of the syndrome is characterised by a relationship that has past the stage of maximum engagement / interaction, but where the two parties are still related in some kind of minimal contact.  This could be either by a family bond, or friends that have been in business together, play sport, traveled, and etc.  The key word here is "minimal" as in where neither of the parties has engaged in any form of activity for an extended period of time. 

The main phase of the syndrome kicks in where one part of the relationship has either found themselves with a windfall, such as a lottery win, a business that has boomed (making huge profits), or anything that involves much money.  For explaining this in an easier context, we'll call this part of the relationship the "Windfaller".

The other part of the relationship will then make contact out of the blue and either indirectly or upfront will plead to have a part of the money.  This person in this part of the relationship is called the "Pleader".

It is the pleader who has the five million dollar syndrome.  Note how the pleader doesn't have much interest anymore in the windfaller's life or well-being, until the windfaller finds themselves in possession of the money. 

For the most part, this is purely driven by greed, mainly on the part of the pleader whose interests or values regarding relationships are shallow and materialistic.  The pleader's values are based on how much they can draw or suck out of somebody or any kind of situation.  They are completely oblivious that relationships, whether they are family, friends, or business; are based on mutual respect and trust. 

But between the pleaders and the windfallers there is another very, very small minority, many on the Asperger Syndrome spectrum, but they are certainly not shallow and materialistic, or most importantly don't lack respect or trust.  I'll be explaining this in my next posting coming soon.

Tuesday, January 7, 2014

Sporting super stars admire mass murdering dictator, coming from the "utterly insane" file.

CURRENT MOOD:     Speechless
Wow - I don't know if this is insane or utterly mad.  But when I awoken to the sounds of News Radio this morning, the female announcer announced that retired basketball player Dennis Rodman loves Kim Jong Un.  A cut from the 9News World website states.....

"Former basketball star Dennis Rodman is headed to Pyongyang with a group of former NBA players, and says he won't raise concerns about repression in North Korea because leader Kim Jong-Un is his "friend" and he "loves him"".

Um, yes, I did manage to get out of bed this morning, after hearing that, but hell, was it a very precarious walk to the kitchen, it was a miracle I made it to the breakfast table in one piece - yes I was truly dizzy.

I'm reluctant to bring this back to my radio station project, as I feel that the time has come to move on.  I'll try and put this short, sharp, and to the point.  I've pretty much encapsulated everything I've done with the radio station in my last update; "After 14 years, it's time to reflect.";  The main thrust of what I'm saying here today is that those with Asperger's Syndrome find it impossible to find acknowledgment and affirmation, yet here we have a dictator held in high regard.

As noted before, my Asperger's makes communicating somewhat difficult on my behalf, in particular having the intuition of being assertive at the right time.  Respecting other people’s agendas and schedules is all part and parcel when corresponding with those in important positions, but at the same time I want to be heard.  Despite so much effort in trying to conduct a project that has proven merit, consistency, and commitment, I have found it extraordinarily disappointing and upsetting that speaking to the right people who could make a difference have been so unreachable.    

Though I've had a few articles in the local community newspaper, telephone contact, e-mails, or correspondence from those with some influence has been completely silent. The last straw came a few days before Christmas, when a letter arrived from the minister I've been dealing with.  It was of a rather condescending and belligerent tone.  It basically noted how their departments have contacted me three times, just for being told no, no, and no. 

On the other hand, we have Kim Jong Un, who is just as ruthless as his dictator father Kim Jong il, being loved by sporting stars, in this case Dennis Rodman.  It is totally mad how I've been trying to set up a radio station that represents 17% of Sydney's population (handicapped and carers) without a slither of interest from politicians, celebrities, or anyone in a similar vane.  I am utterly dumbfounded how a mass murderer, human cannibalizer, an animal who treats the people in his country like scum, and one who is now killing off his family (aunte killed of this afternoon), being held in such high regard and admiration by notable sporting figures.  Despite us getting out and attending various meetings, events, and expos, us Aspies feel that we're the ones copping the sanctions from society.  In light of how hard we try to reach out, integrate, and be involved, we feel that we're being constantly pushed back into an unbreakable cocoon.  

So to sign off on this blog, I'm struggling how someone like Dennis Rodman can admire such an animal that has caused so much suffering, hatred, pain, death to millions, and often makes war threats.  If someone of such horror can be admired, then I'm wondering in a general sense what either I or those with Asperger’s have to accomplish to be taken seriously.  In Denmark, they are looked upon highly, as they are hired by a firm called the specialists - who believe that those with Asperger's have great skill.  In Australia we are looked upon as outcasts.

So for a little light hearted fun, I would like to ask through this blog, if any other football or soccer stars like David Beckham for a little of their time.  I would like to explain that If I could have enough funds for buying a small office, and some digital radio spectrum in Sydney, that us disability people could have a radio voice - surely we are a camp of people much more deserving then someone to the likes of Kim Jong Un?  Surely 14 years of hard work in building a radio station must mean so much more, then somebody who murders his population on mass, dictates with a cast iron fist, and threatens war?  Maybe or maybe not - drop me a line at radio2prfm (at) if anyone has the answers.


For further reading, here were some of the other news items used as sources.

ABC News 24 Story on Dennis Rodman

9News World story on Dennis Rodman

Though I'm sure that most who are reading this would be well versed in the activities of this piece of scum, for those who aren't, here are some documentaries worth seeing.  I have to note that they all contain images of a sickening and abhorrent nature.

North Korea Uncovered is a BBC Panorama documentary aired sometime around April May 2013.  It is a look at the Stalinist state under 29 year old Kim Jong Un.  Reporter John Sweeney describes the filth North Koreans have to live through; people scavenge in mud for food, women wash clothes in icy rivers, and even he tells of having breakfast in a gilded cage.  Ji Seong Ho; a North Korean Defector tells how simply disagreeing is enough to be killed; sent to a labor camp to be slaughtered - yes they do this to living human beings.

Children of the Secret State is a discovery documentary that shows a frank look on the disgusting conditions that children in such a totalitarian state experience.  Shot around 2002 2003, it notes how over three million of its people have died, out of a population of twenty million in less then ten years.   From the start, the program shows graphic visions of orphans from a black food market.  A place where criminals sell food at super inflated prices to the few adults who can afford it.  Children are left to scavenge for crumbs in the mud, as adults eat in full view of starving, delirious orphans as young as five.  Children often live in conditions infested with rats, cockroaches, and other contagious diseases, with no medicine or medical controls.  Un Shoul (sudinam) who often sneaked out and into the country for leaking out damming video on the hostile conditions of such a state exposes the true living hell that North Korea is.  This is a state where many humans are treated like animals and are left to rot and die.  This is if they haven't been sent to labor camps and slaughtered under the countries ruthless punishment regime.

More documentaries on the horrors of North Korea can be found at this wikipedia page.  Just copy the title into youtube, and it should pop up.